so many friends but how many have i connected with. alot of people pass through my life and only a handful are still around. even then, life distanced us. what can we do when we are alone.

i had the most loving person by my side for almost 2 years. now that she is gone, how do i cope with this feeling. a feeling i cant describe. lost, broken and alone, and i am the only one to blame.

25 years passed, what kind of man am i. i guess to some, on the outside, this bear of a man is happy and cheerful but really everyone has a side that only a handful ever see. where am i heading in life, this question baffle me every single day of my life. somehow after 25 birthdays, i feel im still afloat at the same spot.

am i a overtly negative person. maybe but i really cant think of things that i am proud of.

i am selfish, arrogant and hot temper. that why u left. you deserve better. i dont deserve you until im a better person.

all the nights staring at the ceiling, waking moment with emptyness and dread.

give me the strength and wisdom to do the right thing and be better for you, for me, for us.

you are the only one i want.