After 3 days madness, the event is finally over. I am burned, exhausted and my feet got blisters. Felt like in a blink of an eye, the event was over. I think i had a splendid time abeit the scorching hot day and endless walking. Even though i was pretty occupied, i still couldn't find myself not thinking of you.
i miss you so much. Are you missing me?
i got home a few hours back and when i reached, i remembered how you turned up at my place the last night to surprise me. It brought a smile to my face, remembering your sweetness. I feel this emptiness everywhere i go. How i wish every step i take, you will be there with me like it has been for the past 2 years. i know i was selfish to ask you to reconsider a long distance relationship. so i guess i have to let you go for now and hope some day you will find your way back into my arms.
Here i am bumming my ass in Starbucks. Finally, managed to get a few assignments started, haven't been in the mood lately. This long weekend is stretching my limits.
Nothing really new today as i just can't help indulging in my hollow emptiness mood.
Do you remember?
"Sometimes when I'm not with you, I can still taste your kiss on my lips.
It makes me smile to myself and think of you."
"Now i'm waiting and hoping to surprise Snuffers."
well, i simply can't forget. Hoping to hear from you soon, honey pie
I just got home from the movie "Phobia 2". Nothing fantastic really, was thinking about you the whole time rather than enjoying the movie. Thought about the time we watched the first movie together. How much you hated watching horror films but somehow i always dragged you along. You get so frighten sometimes you have to stay over. This long weekend has been pretty difficult to get through without having thoughts of us. I wish so bad that we can start talking again.
Day thirty-three: Sunny days remind me of your smile
I just can't stop thinking about you. Although it doesn't hurt as much as the past weeks, thinking about you still made me feel lonely and empty; very hollow inside. I am trying to walk alone again after having you by my side for the past two years. At the moment, I can still see us everywhere i go, the memories just come flooding in my mind and it makes me miss you really badly. Someday i do fine but most nights and especially on weekends, i feel so vulnerable and it makes me cried thinking about us. Thinking about all the happy and sad times, the big and small things that we have shared, it brings a smile to my face but leave me empty inside.
"But I guess, that I can live without you but without you. I'll be miserable at best."
As much as my heart desires and aches for us to be together, i know that i have to let you go. It is so hard but I am learning to accept that. I know it has been something that you wanted for sometime now. To be away from me, physically and emotionally, but i am afraid that i will lose you forever after this one year. It is my biggest fear. When will we talk again? when will i see your face again? I hope i can get back to sports soon, at least i tink it will help keep me occupied and make the days pass faster. Right now, the days are pain-stakingly slow and boring as hell.
On a happier note, i went out with E-fly yesterday and got some things done. Collected my gfx card, went through some assignments at the library and managed to buy a new pairs of shoe. You remember, its the pair we saw together? Walking past Taka, Paragon and Heerens yesterday, just brings back so much memories and i cant help but wish your here with me.
So here i am (again), hopefully this time i can make the effort to blog much more often than the past few years. I created this "bear-nicle" to let me pen my journey on a sort of self-discovery. I am trying to stand on my paws again without my pot of sweetness for the next one year. I am not quite sure where this will head but i hope it will be positive. The very least it will let me express my thoughts and emotions where i could not do so with you. So it has already began, my journey into the forest alone (maybe sometimes with an imaginary you beside me) for the next one year.
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the surprise
Monday, 28 September 2009
After 3 days madness, the event is finally over. I am burned, exhausted and my feet got blisters. Felt like in a blink of an eye, the event was over. I think i had a splendid time abeit the scorching hot day and endless walking. Even though i was pretty occupied, i still couldn't find myself not thinking of you.
i miss you so much. Are you missing me?
i got home a few hours back and when i reached, i remembered how you turned up at my place the last night to surprise me. It brought a smile to my face, remembering your sweetness. I feel this emptiness everywhere i go. How i wish every step i take, you will be there with me like it has been for the past 2 years. i know i was selfish to ask you to reconsider a long distance relationship. so i guess i have to let you go for now and hope some day you will find your way back into my arms.
Here i am bumming my ass in Starbucks. Finally, managed to get a few assignments started, haven't been in the mood lately. This long weekend is stretching my limits.
Nothing really new today as i just can't help indulging in my hollow emptiness mood.
Do you remember?
"Sometimes when I'm not with you, I can still taste your kiss on my lips.
It makes me smile to myself and think of you."
"Now i'm waiting and hoping to surprise Snuffers."
well, i simply can't forget. Hoping to hear from you soon, honey pie
I just got home from the movie "Phobia 2". Nothing fantastic really, was thinking about you the whole time rather than enjoying the movie. Thought about the time we watched the first movie together. How much you hated watching horror films but somehow i always dragged you along. You get so frighten sometimes you have to stay over. This long weekend has been pretty difficult to get through without having thoughts of us. I wish so bad that we can start talking again.
Day thirty-three: Sunny days remind me of your smile
I just can't stop thinking about you. Although it doesn't hurt as much as the past weeks, thinking about you still made me feel lonely and empty; very hollow inside. I am trying to walk alone again after having you by my side for the past two years. At the moment, I can still see us everywhere i go, the memories just come flooding in my mind and it makes me miss you really badly. Someday i do fine but most nights and especially on weekends, i feel so vulnerable and it makes me cried thinking about us. Thinking about all the happy and sad times, the big and small things that we have shared, it brings a smile to my face but leave me empty inside.
"But I guess, that I can live without you but without you. I'll be miserable at best."
As much as my heart desires and aches for us to be together, i know that i have to let you go. It is so hard but I am learning to accept that. I know it has been something that you wanted for sometime now. To be away from me, physically and emotionally, but i am afraid that i will lose you forever after this one year. It is my biggest fear. When will we talk again? when will i see your face again? I hope i can get back to sports soon, at least i tink it will help keep me occupied and make the days pass faster. Right now, the days are pain-stakingly slow and boring as hell.
On a happier note, i went out with E-fly yesterday and got some things done. Collected my gfx card, went through some assignments at the library and managed to buy a new pairs of shoe. You remember, its the pair we saw together? Walking past Taka, Paragon and Heerens yesterday, just brings back so much memories and i cant help but wish your here with me.
So here i am (again), hopefully this time i can make the effort to blog much more often than the past few years. I created this "bear-nicle" to let me pen my journey on a sort of self-discovery. I am trying to stand on my paws again without my pot of sweetness for the next one year. I am not quite sure where this will head but i hope it will be positive. The very least it will let me express my thoughts and emotions where i could not do so with you. So it has already began, my journey into the forest alone (maybe sometimes with an imaginary you beside me) for the next one year.
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