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My honey pot on the other side of the rainbow.
Day thirty-three: Sunny days remind me of your smile
Sunday, 20 September 2009

I just can't stop thinking about you. Although it doesn't hurt as much as the past weeks, thinking about you still made me feel lonely and empty; very hollow inside. I am trying to walk alone again after having you by my side for the past two years. At the moment, I can still see us everywhere i go, the memories just come flooding in my mind and it makes me miss you really badly. Someday i do fine but most nights and especially on weekends, i feel so vulnerable and it makes me cried thinking about us. Thinking about all the happy and sad times, the big and small things that we have shared, it brings a smile to my face but leave me empty inside.


"But I guess, that I can live without you but without you. I'll be miserable at best."

As much as my heart desires and aches for us to be together, i know that i have to let you go. It is so hard but I am learning to accept that. I know it has been something that you wanted for sometime now. To be away from me, physically and emotionally, but i am afraid that i will lose you forever after this one year. It is my biggest fear. When will we talk again? when will i see your face again? I hope i can get back to sports soon, at least i tink it will help keep me occupied and make the days pass faster. Right now, the days are pain-stakingly slow and boring as hell.

On a happier note, i went out with E-fly yesterday and got some things done. Collected my gfx card, went through some assignments at the library and managed to buy a new pairs of shoe. You remember, its the pair we saw together?  Walking past Taka, Paragon and Heerens yesterday, just brings back so much memories and i cant help but wish your here with me.



I hope you will talk to me soon.
In the meantime, be safe, my honey pie.